Selfishness

Initially, I will be going back home at 6pm by bus today. At about 5 something, I received a call from A. He told me that if I can change my bus ticket with B because B has family emergency and he needs to get home as soon as possible. It means that I will be going back tommorow 6pm instead of today 6 pm if I agree to exchange with him. I asked him that how about himself (A) and C as both of them are closer to B compared to me. He said that they got something on tomorrow in Penang. At first, I plan to say that I got something important on too. But, I just seem could not make a lie. Actually I am going to cut my hair and do some CNY shopping the day I reach Penang but don't think this is important enough to reject helping people. I replied that I will consider and get back to you soon.


At the moment, I saw the real me. Why I ever think of planning to make a lie? Why I ever doubt on helping people ? I did think of I am gonna miss one day fun if I help him. All the while, I feel that I am always helpful to my friends and I did say this to myself - 朋友有事我一定帮。Today, it seems that I am going to break the promise. Besides, I was thinking that how about the other one who is very close to him too that he did not mention in the call just now. I thought they should be those standing in the front line whenever he needs help. A phrase from my friend suddenly came to my mind -爱在嘴里心里都可以很伟大，到了手里就微不足道 which I truly agree with. When you are not in the situation, you feel that you are helpful and willing to sacrifice for your friends. When you are in the real situatuon, taking the first step out is difficult.



A few days ago, I also realise something which I knew it but sometimes I do not practice it. A close friend of mine was depressed for the past few weeks as his grandmother passed away. He received alot of concerns and support from friends. The most impressing one is there is one of his friend who actually helped him to attend the tutorial and help him with all the school activities when he was away. He was touched by what his friend has done for him. This is actually what friends should be doing to one another. He told me that saying something out is easy, but taking the action is not that easy. Words is needed too but action should come first. Some of them say it out just for the sake of it. 实际行动还是最重要。



His words enlightened me. If I ever reject, I do not think I can forgive myself. I called my friend and told him that I can exchange the bus ticket with him. Thank you, he replied me and I can tell that he really appreciate my help. Honestly, I tried very hard to take the first step as the home sweet home mood is there, I have packed, I have had my dinner, and it is just few mins away from stepping up the bus stairs. Before they went off, I saw the friend who I mentioned just now was quite guilty. It is because he feels that actually he can help but he did not. I think he also realises that it would not be the same when it comes to the real situation and human selfishness is everywhere. But I am not gonna blame him for not helping him as people always put themselves in the first priority. That's human nature. Hopefully this incident has given us some lessons.



Another thing comes to my mind is my parents. I think they would be dissapointed if I tell her that I am not gonna reach tomorrow morning but the day after tomorrow. I can tell that she is not dissapointed from her tone. She said never mind and you should help your friends.



I am proud that I did it.

Flying Kite

From a random stranger to a friend.

Two of them came to an amazing place accidentally and unexpectedly after voluntary work. Both of them never know there is such a place and don't even know how to get there. Once they stepped in the place, they were stunned by all the kites flying in the sky.

Both of them could not wait to go to the flying kite site. They ran. As they were running, a kite was flying towards them and it fell just few steps from them. The guy took the initiative to go and take the kite. As nobody claimed for the kite, the kite became theirs.


As he promised her to teach her to fly kite before, the lesson began. He flew up the kite and taught her at the same time. Flying kite doesn't seem to be hard for him because he was born in 'kampung' and this is one of the few entertainments they usually had. All of a sudden, she said, ' 爱情就像放风筝，要懂得收，也要懂得放'. He replied, ' 我也这样觉得，当它飞得不平稳时，就要放一放绳子，当它飞得平稳了，就可以拉一拉，让它向上的飞。Hopefully this love theory works for couples.


The place was so windy. Looking at the sky, they saw kites flying around. Looking around, they saw beautiful scenery with sea and nice buildings around. When the sky turned dark, it was even wonderful as a combination of stars, moon and even kites which were glowing or lighting appearing on the sky. Although they were starving, they still refrain themselves from going for dinner. The sky was so great with the kites around. There was also a wide variety of kites such as fish, snake, devil birds and cartoon as if it is another world for animals. Finally, they had their dinner at a cafe and the atmosphere was great. To add on, part of this place is surrounded by the sea and there is a bridge which extends to the sea. Everything turned out to be perfect or near perfection as if they have planned for the night. But they never.


The girl kept saying, 'I have already fallen in love with this place, I love this place so much, How How How'. He replied, ' Ya, this is an awesome place especially for couples and partly because I am here.'(with a little bit of joke) Before the night ended, he told her, ' 我今天过得越开心，我就越舍不得你.' She replied, ' 人与人都会有分分离离的.' It's because the girl is leaving soon and they will be thousand-mile apart. It's all depends on yuan fen then. He feels that good things are obviously happening on him but sometimes there are bad sides. The merrier the night he spent with her, the more he suffered. But he has no choice and just to accept this.


Initially, he could not believe this happy moments actually happened on himself as all the while he thought this only happens in love drama or dreams as people always say 你以为做戏吗. Since then, he changes his perception. Everything including those incidents in drama or dreams is possible to happen and sometimes it would even happen out of your expectation. Hence, be ready for that. He feels lucky too whenever he thinks of the night they spent together, that they got to the such a good place so unexpectedly. While lying on the grass, they were amazed by the sky. The feeling would not be that great if he doesn't have her company.


He starts to believe in miracles too and he is ready to face all the uncertanties in the future especially when stepping into working life. At the same time, he starts to learn to appreciate and cherish what he owns especially the friendship between them. Sad to say, the kite which saves the memory is still with him, but the girl is away.


The night ended.

The story continues or ends, it is still a question mark for him. Last word from him- Do miss me.