Selfishness

Initially, I will be going back home at 6pm by bus today. At about 5 something, I received a call from A. He told me that if I can change my bus ticket with B because B has family emergency and he needs to get home as soon as possible. It means that I will be going back tommorow 6pm instead of today 6 pm if I agree to exchange with him. I asked him that how about himself (A) and C as both of them are closer to B compared to me. He said that they got something on tomorrow in Penang. At first, I plan to say that I got something important on too. But, I just seem could not make a lie. Actually I am going to cut my hair and do some CNY shopping the day I reach Penang but don't think this is important enough to reject helping people. I replied that I will consider and get back to you soon.


At the moment, I saw the real me. Why I ever think of planning to make a lie? Why I ever doubt on helping people ? I did think of I am gonna miss one day fun if I help him. All the while, I feel that I am always helpful to my friends and I did say this to myself - 朋友有事我一定帮。Today, it seems that I am going to break the promise. Besides, I was thinking that how about the other one who is very close to him too that he did not mention in the call just now. I thought they should be those standing in the front line whenever he needs help. A phrase from my friend suddenly came to my mind -爱在嘴里心里都可以很伟大，到了手里就微不足道 which I truly agree with. When you are not in the situation, you feel that you are helpful and willing to sacrifice for your friends. When you are in the real situatuon, taking the first step out is difficult.



A few days ago, I also realise something which I knew it but sometimes I do not practice it. A close friend of mine was depressed for the past few weeks as his grandmother passed away. He received alot of concerns and support from friends. The most impressing one is there is one of his friend who actually helped him to attend the tutorial and help him with all the school activities when he was away. He was touched by what his friend has done for him. This is actually what friends should be doing to one another. He told me that saying something out is easy, but taking the action is not that easy. Words is needed too but action should come first. Some of them say it out just for the sake of it. 实际行动还是最重要。



His words enlightened me. If I ever reject, I do not think I can forgive myself. I called my friend and told him that I can exchange the bus ticket with him. Thank you, he replied me and I can tell that he really appreciate my help. Honestly, I tried very hard to take the first step as the home sweet home mood is there, I have packed, I have had my dinner, and it is just few mins away from stepping up the bus stairs. Before they went off, I saw the friend who I mentioned just now was quite guilty. It is because he feels that actually he can help but he did not. I think he also realises that it would not be the same when it comes to the real situation and human selfishness is everywhere. But I am not gonna blame him for not helping him as people always put themselves in the first priority. That's human nature. Hopefully this incident has given us some lessons.



Another thing comes to my mind is my parents. I think they would be dissapointed if I tell her that I am not gonna reach tomorrow morning but the day after tomorrow. I can tell that she is not dissapointed from her tone. She said never mind and you should help your friends.



I am proud that I did it.

Flying Kite

From a random stranger to a friend.

Two of them came to an amazing place accidentally and unexpectedly after voluntary work. Both of them never know there is such a place and don't even know how to get there. Once they stepped in the place, they were stunned by all the kites flying in the sky.

Both of them could not wait to go to the flying kite site. They ran. As they were running, a kite was flying towards them and it fell just few steps from them. The guy took the initiative to go and take the kite. As nobody claimed for the kite, the kite became theirs.


As he promised her to teach her to fly kite before, the lesson began. He flew up the kite and taught her at the same time. Flying kite doesn't seem to be hard for him because he was born in 'kampung' and this is one of the few entertainments they usually had. All of a sudden, she said, ' 爱情就像放风筝，要懂得收，也要懂得放'. He replied, ' 我也这样觉得，当它飞得不平稳时，就要放一放绳子，当它飞得平稳了，就可以拉一拉，让它向上的飞。Hopefully this love theory works for couples.


The place was so windy. Looking at the sky, they saw kites flying around. Looking around, they saw beautiful scenery with sea and nice buildings around. When the sky turned dark, it was even wonderful as a combination of stars, moon and even kites which were glowing or lighting appearing on the sky. Although they were starving, they still refrain themselves from going for dinner. The sky was so great with the kites around. There was also a wide variety of kites such as fish, snake, devil birds and cartoon as if it is another world for animals. Finally, they had their dinner at a cafe and the atmosphere was great. To add on, part of this place is surrounded by the sea and there is a bridge which extends to the sea. Everything turned out to be perfect or near perfection as if they have planned for the night. But they never.


The girl kept saying, 'I have already fallen in love with this place, I love this place so much, How How How'. He replied, ' Ya, this is an awesome place especially for couples and partly because I am here.'(with a little bit of joke) Before the night ended, he told her, ' 我今天过得越开心，我就越舍不得你.' She replied, ' 人与人都会有分分离离的.' It's because the girl is leaving soon and they will be thousand-mile apart. It's all depends on yuan fen then. He feels that good things are obviously happening on him but sometimes there are bad sides. The merrier the night he spent with her, the more he suffered. But he has no choice and just to accept this.


Initially, he could not believe this happy moments actually happened on himself as all the while he thought this only happens in love drama or dreams as people always say 你以为做戏吗. Since then, he changes his perception. Everything including those incidents in drama or dreams is possible to happen and sometimes it would even happen out of your expectation. Hence, be ready for that. He feels lucky too whenever he thinks of the night they spent together, that they got to the such a good place so unexpectedly. While lying on the grass, they were amazed by the sky. The feeling would not be that great if he doesn't have her company.


He starts to believe in miracles too and he is ready to face all the uncertanties in the future especially when stepping into working life. At the same time, he starts to learn to appreciate and cherish what he owns especially the friendship between them. Sad to say, the kite which saves the memory is still with him, but the girl is away.


The night ended.

The story continues or ends, it is still a question mark for him. Last word from him- Do miss me.

Thank You to Chen Yi and Jorine

Been dumping my blog for five months. Here comes my new post. This post is written to specially show my appreciation for Chenyi and Jorine. In addition, I am gonna talk about 缘分, significance of blogging and time too.


For the past few days, I have been spending my time with Chenyi, Jorine and their friends. They are really friendly and nice. We had a great great time touring around Singapore. I shall start with how I made friend with Chenyi first. I met her once in Gurney when we were in Form 4. Yea, I still can remember. That was through Yih Jia. Since then, we never talk to each other face to face until the singapore trip that she had for the past few days. And now I can be so friend with her most probably because of 缘分. If it is not because of hun hao's birthday video, everything would not be the same. There was one time when she asked around hun hao's friends for making his birthday video, and I talked to her in msn regarding the video. I actually have her msn contact for very long time ago just that we never chat to each other before. Besides, there is her blog link in my friend's blog. Sometimes I did read her blog but only once in a blue moon as I don't really know her. Due to her sacrifice and effort for friends (hun hao's birthday video), I started to 欣赏 her and feel like making friends with her. Everyone wants to have good friends around right ?!Since then, I started chatting with her, reading her blog more frequent. Sooner or later, I fall for her blog. Yeah, she accepted me as her blog fan. LOL. The way she expresses herself, the writing style, writing about people's thought including herself impresses me so much that I can't refrain myself from reading them. Besides, my vocab gets improved too. Thank you yea. I am here to promote her blog. Her blog is highly recommended and you get to learn a lot from her blog.


As time goes on, I asked myself when we gonna meet up. There was one day when we were chatting in msn, she suddenly told me that she will be coming to Singapore before heading back to Penang. It is damn lucky for me that her trip started from 6th to 14th Jan which is the time I just back to Sg from Pg. If her trip were earlier (late december), I can't meet her up because I was still in Penang. If her trip were later, my school would have started. 我觉得这是缘分或注定我们要想见吧! So, I decided to go Singapore earlier so that I can meet them up earlier? or more days to join them? Lol. As I m quite an outgoing person who doesnt like to stay alone. I asked her about the itinerary and her housemate put me on sunday which is written as 'meet up with leo guy' in the itenarary. I thought that it was just that one day or half day and she has the same thought too. But in the end, I almost joined them for half of their Singapore trip.


Really unbelievable that we eventually went to Zouk, Theme park, Zoo and Night Safari together. Before that, I was worried that we have nothing in common to talk about as this is the first time we meet each other. Lol. When we met each other, it seems like we have known each other for years ( Does she has the same feeling because I'm using 'we' ? Please answer me this. ) There was once when we were heading to zouk, I told them I can't believe that I would be going there with you all, and even sitting the same cab to the destination, and even even waiting them to dress up and make up at Jorine's house. I truly agree that life is unexpected and unpredictable. My saying is - when you expect it, it somehow turns out to be unexpectedly bad. But when you don't expect it, it might turns out to be unexpectedly good.-


And also Jorine ( her housemate ) who I wanna talk about. There is one word to describe her which is funny, funny and funny. Sometimes I just can't stop laughing about the things she has done, what she talked. I am pretty sure that everyone will feel happy when she is around. She is very cute and 单纯 too. She is so easily cheated by people. I must remind you this if u are reading my blog, be alert all the time and don't trust people so easily. More importantly, thanks for your time, your company, your friendliness, your massage, your family especially the seafood meal. Really appreciate it and hope there is a chance for me to treat you for a dinner. Lol. If you wanna see me lar. =)


The significance of blogging. I realise the importance of blogging during the Singapore trip. If I never read her blog before, I don't think that I can be so 'click' with her because reading people's blog = reading people's minds so we get to know him/her better. That also leads to more conversation as you know what's going on with the people. Hence, the gap gets closer and closer. I said so much, am I telling myself to blog more to let my friends understand me better? Hopefully I will blog more often lar. But sometimes I am just lazy to write. I like to talk but lazy to write, that's me -LIM WEI JIE.


Speaking of time, I just realise that time is very cruel - 时间是很残酷的. The five days which I spent with them, it is like 5 hours or even less. And also my 5 week holidays back in Penang, it ended so so fast that I still can recall the first day I reached my hostel and I saw the janitor. It seems like I have not been seeing her for few days only, I still have very strong memory on her. I just cant help it. Sometimes I keep asking myself why time flies, why why why !!! Time always flies when you are enjoying it while it slows down terribly when you are having miserable moment ( eg. study week or exam week ). I asked myself what can I do! I think what I can do is just accept it, cherish every single fun/happy moment that I had and also not to hate those miserable times I used to have before but to learn new lessons from them.


Lastly, to say it again, really appreciate having friends like you all. I enjoyed so much the time spent with you all. Hope you all feel the same way too. Thanks for everything.